But Now Is Different, You're Like A Stranger To Me...

Its moving all to fast...
Everything is coming to an end.
An end to another phase in life. Im scared.
Prelims are starting. O levels after that.
Time should slow down sometimes.
Its all too fast.. I want to slow it down...

& i want to learn to talk 17 syllables per second. ((:
Man, that guy is awesome! He is a really good rapper & speaker.
Outsider is a korean rapper.
He can rap 17 syllables per second. Which is WICKED!
Hahahhs. ((: Sane moment.
Nyahahhs.

Oh wells...
HAPPY BIRTHDAYY WEN SHEE!!!!
May you have a splendid birthday!
Good luck for O levels.
& stay cheerful! ((:

Twooodlesss then. ((:

Labels: your thoughts...

All I Ask Is An Escape From Reality...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I just feel like giving everything up.
Im just going nuts.
Its hard. Its never been this hard before.
This is the only time that I have put in sooo much effort in.
But why don't I see the results?
Prelims is in 3 weeks time.
Tommorow is my prelim oral.
My parents are worried.
& heck, even the teachers are worried about me.
I just look real dazed and tired in class.
Yeah, but things do get in my brain.
Just at a slower pace. I guess.
& to many, I look almost carefree.
Externally, i keep my calm.
The tiredness, its real.
It really is. Its unbelievable how lethargic I am.
Internally, Im raging a war with myself.
I am motivated, but its all taken its toll.

Im Just Really Tired.
I dont really care anymore...
I just want to get this over & done with.
I wanna pass this part of my life.
& whatever happens, let it happen.
I can make by improvisation.
& hey, ive been doing that all this while...

& yeahh, escapism from reality seems like the best thing to me now...

Labels: Escape, hope?, reality

I Try Comforting Myself With This One Lie...

Im slowly losing my sanity.
Its mentally draining.
Every part of my life is draining.
& did I mention that evri part of my life constitutes of studying?
3 more months...
My sleeping patterns are a nightmare.
I am sleep deprived most of the time.
Thats why..
Its draining all of me.
Sometimes, I just dont have the energy to laugh also.
Haissyyy. FOCUS!
I don't want to repeat this psychotic schedule again.
I must do it just once.
& ONCE ONLY!
I shall prove myself.
That I am capable of great things in life.
Whatever those are.
But Self-Motivation is the least I can give myself for now.
& yeahh. Incentives.
Yes. I shall do it.
Now, Off to study. & finish up Amaths.

Twoodlessss!

Labels: the lie i never wanted to tell...